It’s funny how the best ideas always seem to come to mind when you are in the least favorable position to record them. I can be laying in bed, driving the car, taking a shower, sitting in a meeting, chatting on the phone…but never when I’m sitting in front of the computer keyboard.
I’m already well aware of my problem in the “focus” department. I can mess around on social media for hours with other people around, but when it come to writing specific words for specific projects, I cannot function with others in the room. Maybe it’s the “mom” ear; the phenomenon all women acquire after giving birth: You can hear everything going on around you at all times of the day and night. You don’t necessarily tune into them all, rather, you filter through them as though you were Superman listening for particular cries of help. You can swing between white noise and hyper-attentive in a fraction of a second. How can I ever expect to get any writing done when someone else is breathing within 10 feet of where I’m set up? And forget about standing along side or behind me and reading over my shoulder. This girl shuts down when that happens. Game over.
Summer is always a time for slacking off with my writing because the kid is ever present. I have suffered numerous bouts of insomnia since childhood and they always seem to kick in between the months of August and December. I can honestly say that I attribute that to my body attempting to play catch up for all of the lost time between the months of April-July. I begin to stay up later and later each night just so that I can have a few minutes to myself to type or if I’m lucky, kick back with a good book. I took to blogging to assist with my discipline, and for the most part, it has helped. But my focus is still lacking.
I do keep my mind busy with other projects. In the last 8 years, it seems I have a hand or foot dipped into everything going on around town. My husband accuses me of having an impulsive arm, raising it at every opportunity for volunteerism. It’s not that I don’t enjoy doing those things, it’s just that I need to find a balance between the time I give to others and the time that I give–deservedly–to myself.
Case in point, at this exact moment, my To-Do list includes:
- Mom duties
- Wife duties
- Family duties
- Friend duties
- Appointment setting
- Compiling trivia for our archive
- Planning for 2yr anniversary party of said trivia company
- Scripting the format for a Zombie 101 panel at Charlotte Comicon
- Redirecting costume registrations and organizing sign-in/registrations
- Designing tri-fold/sponsor wall for photo-ops
- Composing business marketing plans for 2 companies
- Working box office 3 nights for Shakespeare Carolina during their run of A Comedy of Errors
- Go to rehearsals to assist cast in running lines for Hamlet (until CoE cast returns)
- Work on assigned tasks for Old Town Zombie Crawl benefit for Heart2Heart Foundation
- Produce a series of web video ads
- Save and plan trip–including mixing all audio for the drive–Wizard World Ohio in September
- Back to school nonsense starts in 4 weeks time
- Oh….and I’m trying to finish writing my book
So, yeah. I tend to let my mind wander and I lose track of the time to work on the things that are for ME. Don’t let this sense of being overwhelmed fool you. I never seem to lose track of time or the ability to produce when it comes to being accountable to someone or something else. Everything on that list–and then some–will be done, and before they are due, because that’s how I work. My book, however, ends up taking the back seat to all of this.
That’s going to change. I started the blog to force myself into writing with regularity. And today, I was invited to participate in an international group called Write Club (see link on the menu bar). They encourage writers to write by almost forcing you to make the time to do so. Every Friday night, 2pm est, they give a little warning, and then a GO signal via Twitter. At that time, you have 30 minutes to type. At the end when they tweet STOP, you have to tweet back at them with your word count. There is a 15 minute break, and then you go again for another 30 minutes. They do this for 12 hours every Friday night with moderators on 2 continents and people assigned to track your word count for you, to provide weekly and monthly totals. It’s genius.
I can’t wait until next Friday to participate for an hour or two. Because, of course, my mind is too preoccupied to do anything like that today 😉